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From child to a young adult giving birth to my daughter, to becoming a successful business manager who finally understand who she is - a slave.
My life until now:
My life started on September 1, 1970. I have three older brother’s one older sister and one baby sister. I was brought up as most East Asian women coming from the upper middle class. Family, education and hard work were corner pillars in my upbringing. Confucius said one should concentrate her studies on morality through rites and music. Sex, porn and nudity were words outside my vocabulary until my early teens. I followed my Mom and Dad wherever my Fathers work took us. I learned about other cultures. I learned languages. I became a world citizen.
The second part of my life started just before I entered my teens (when I got breasts). My body didn’t look like my Asian girlfriends. I looked more like a Western girl. I had long legs and arms and as I said – I had big tits! I became the talking stock among the girls. Everyone wanted to see me nude. I remember how shy I was the first few times I was forced to show my naked body for the girls (and boys) but I was for the first time in my life the center point of attention and I liked it. I got braver as the years passed by. I got fond of showing my nude body and my friends got fond of touching it. My girlfriends and I invented several sex games and I received my first orgasm a few days after my sixteenth birthday.
The third part of my life began when I got a boyfriend. He was 20 and I was 18. None of us knew much about sex between man and woman. I got pregnant and my daughter was born in April 1990. I spent the coming years as a good Mom taking care of my daughter while studying and working. Things changed after my husband had finished his bachelor. I guess he wanted his youth back. Our relation was doomed.
The fourth part of my life started when I left the father of my daughter. I worked hard and concentrated most of my energy on becoming good at my job. It came to me easily. I was well trained, I was young and I had talent. I became very successful. I supervised the productions before I even understood what had happened. Also my sex life changed to the better, my friends started to command me and take very erotic pictures of me the same way I had been forced to by my school mates when I was young. We even did an adult DVD for fun – I must admit that it was rather XXX (I have never done any XXX Videos after that). I liked being treated like a sex pet. I thought life was a ball. I worked hard. I partied hard and I had great lesbian sex with my girlfriends. I learned to love group sex. Didn’t matter if it was 3somes or 4somes! And most important: I felt sexy again.
The fifth part of my life started when my girlfriends got married and my sex life disappeared. I had become fond of sex from an early age. It wasn’t fun sitting home alone rubbing pussy. I needed more. My solution was simple. I meet many young attractive single girls in my job (you have probably seen many of them in Asian and Western Fashion Mags and in Porn and Glam movies). Why not doing the same with them as I did with my girl friends? There had to be some girls who would like to dominate me, who would like to use me. I found plenty. I got sooo hot the first time one of them ordered me to have sex in front of the camera at a production I was hired to manage, not participate in, that I cum too fast! They had to re-shoot the scene several times before I managed to control my orgasm. That's when I learned that I can only live out my sexual fantasies when being controlled and dominated (preferably by women).
The sixth period of my life started 2008 when I joined the cyber sex wave and went public on free porn sites with my pictures and admitted what I am – a hard working bisexual (almost lesbian), submissive, exhibitionistic business woman.
I was during a sex chat (shortly after I had gone public) asked if I wanted to enter a slave training. I was bit afraid in the beginning but agreed after a few weeks. I have had two different “real” owners and teachers since I started my training; Maitre Rem and Mistress Michelle (Mistress Michelle has a huge network of Masters and Ladies around the world helping her to take care of me when I’m on travels). They have taught me sooo much about sex and myself. I’m now more than happy to have anal sex (which I was afraid of before), be the center of a bukkaka sessions (which I didn't know anything about before I became a slave) and have teen sex with girls who likes adult sex -university girls touching, exploring and exposing my body – often showing me nude in public (conquering this taboo has probably been one of my greatest achievements as a slave). I have a cabinet full of sex toys which I use almost on a daily basis and I have been sent on various adult sex parties and slave auctions where I’ve been servicing men and women of all ages.
The seventh part of my life started on June 12, 2010 when I was for the first time sent to perform sexual services to people I work with, people I know and people who know my family. All my previous periods have been in some sort of hiding. I have in most of my previous life been partly open about my sexuality but I have never been open about it to my own peers, acquaintances and business partners. I guess I have been as sexually closed as all others when my sexuality came too close to me. All that has changed now. My Mistresses have presented me, my body and my sexlife to all I know (both in my professional life and in my private life). I felt very shy about the situation when I wrote this part of my life story (June 18, 2010) but I have also conquered this taboo and can now fully enjoy whatever I'm sent to perform for whoever might see me and use me. I have gay friends who have told me how good their life become after they came out in the open. Now I know what they mean!
The eighth part of my life started on July 29, 2013 when I became a slave to my own daughter. This is probably my last (major) taboo to conquer - and probably the biggest taboo I've been ordered to conquer. I feel very uncomfortable with it right now (July 31, 2013), but I have conquered other taboo's earlier in my education which at the time felt at least as huge to conquer as this one. I hope and think that time and practice will make me free from my current shyness towards my daughter and her friends.
I have conquered many of my sexual taboos since I entered my slave training and that have had a good influence on my professional life where I have been able to perform and facilitate production requests I never thought I should be able to do just a few years ago. I don’t know my next orders as a business woman arranging shootings, acting in front of the camera and doing image editing's - or as a slave following my Mistresses and Masters orders, but I’m sure they will make me a better woman and human being.
